Mémoire de moi

how do you now if your friend is mad at you?

2011-05-08T22:05:00.001+08:00

it's hard to tell how. you just know.

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Are you happy?

2011-05-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

yes

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If you're on God's side send this to all your followers. If you're on the devil's side dont send

2011-05-05T13:19:00.001+08:00

sure!

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If you're on God's side send this to all your followers. If you're on the devil's side dont send

2011-05-04T13:24:00.001+08:00

If you're on God's side send this to all your followers. If you're on the devil's side dont send

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have you ever googled yourself? ahahaha... ;)

2011-05-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

a lot of times

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how do you move on?

2011-05-01T23:54:00.001+08:00

go to another country....stay there for atleast 6months....

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what do you do when your mad?

2011-05-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

i keep quiet...

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What do you usually do with your friends?

2011-05-01T23:53:00.001+08:00

study

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How come you never see a billboard being put up by the highway?

2011-05-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

i've seen a lot of billboards by the highway....

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What do you think is the most important value in a relationship?

2011-04-28T03:23:00.005+08:00

trust

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What do you do for fun?

2011-04-28T03:23:00.003+08:00

sleeping

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What makes you laugh/cry?

2011-04-28T03:23:00.001+08:00

funny things/sad things

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Is there anything you would willingly give your life for?

2011-04-28T03:22:00.007+08:00

nope

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What makes friends different from family?

2011-04-28T03:22:00.005+08:00

they're not related to you

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What stupid nickname do your friends call you?

2011-04-28T03:22:00.003+08:00

cong

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What turns you off?

2011-04-28T03:22:00.001+08:00

nosy people

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If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?

2011-04-28T03:21:00.001+08:00

lol

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If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

2011-04-26T15:36:00.003+08:00

Spain

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How do you make new friends?

2011-04-26T15:36:00.001+08:00

ask for their name.. then start a conversation

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What's worse... having expectations that are too high, or having no expectations at all?

2011-04-26T15:35:00.001+08:00

No expectations at all... cause it means that you don't have any confidence on yourself and you don't believe on your capabilities

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Do you think famous people are happier than ordinary people?

2011-04-26T15:34:00.005+08:00

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Would you rather have the power to be invisible or the power to read minds?

2011-04-26T15:34:00.003+08:00

Read minds

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Do you ever play solitaire when you’re bored?

2011-04-26T15:34:00.001+08:00

Yes

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American Idol fan?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.017+08:00

not really

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What’s sexier: making love on the carpet in front of a fireplace or on the hood of a car in the rain?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.015+08:00

Carpet in front of a fireplace

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Are you a good dancer?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.013+08:00

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Whats your favorite day of the year?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.011+08:00

May 29

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Desk: messy or organized?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.009+08:00

Messy

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Do you exercise regularly?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.007+08:00

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What is your zodiac sign?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.005+08:00

Gemini

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Any piercings?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.003+08:00

Yes...ears..

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Do you smoke?

2011-04-26T15:33:00.001+08:00

Yes...

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Do you play any instruments?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.013+08:00

Flute...:)

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Where were you born?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.011+08:00

Malaybalay City

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Single or In a relationship?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.009+08:00

single

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1. Craziest thing you've ever done?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.007+08:00

skinny dipping in a pool full of people....LOL

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2. Do you believe in Karma?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.005+08:00

no.

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3. Do you get jealous easy?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.003+08:00

yes :)

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4. Do you like kids?

2011-04-26T15:32:00.001+08:00

yes. :)

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5. Ever cheated on someone?

2011-04-26T15:31:00.003+08:00

nope. never been in a relationship before..... :)

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What was your favorite thing to do during recess at school?

2011-04-26T15:31:00.001+08:00

listen to music

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Strawberry or Chocolate?

2011-04-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

Chocolate

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CityVille or FarmVille?

2011-04-20T21:56:00.001+08:00

None..

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Are you happy right now?

2011-03-04T14:56:00.001+08:00

Yes.. Very. ^^,

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would you rather: fart in an elevator or have someone fart in front of you in an elevator? ahahaha... o:)

2011-03-04T14:55:00.001+08:00

Have someone fart in front of you in an elevator... haha...atleast i'm not the one who's being embarrassed...

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What quality do you value most in your friends?

2011-03-04T14:54:00.003+08:00

Nothing really. I value them because they're them. Nothing more, nothing less..

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what's your favorite ice cream flavor?

2011-03-04T14:54:00.001+08:00

I have two. Vanilla and Mango.

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Do you like the person you have become now? :)

2011-03-04T14:53:00.003+08:00

Yes... I love every bit of him.

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What is your lifetime goal?

2011-03-04T14:53:00.001+08:00

To be Happy... :)

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The Box

2011-02-10T05:24:00.001+08:00

Then it hit me. If he didn’t kill his wife to restore his child’s sight and hearing, the cycle would have been broken… the button wouldn’t have been pressed again… A mistake does not repair the damage caused by a previous mistake, it just aggravates it.

Why is it called a "drive through" if you have to stop??

2011-02-01T02:58:00.001+08:00

Why is it called a "drive through" if you have to stop??

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Why is it called a "drive through" if you have to stop? hahaha

2011-02-01T02:56:00.001+08:00

cause you don't have to go out of your car to get what you ordered? LOL

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Do you believe in angels?

2011-01-22T02:59:00.003+08:00

Yes

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Who's the smartest person you know?

2011-01-22T02:59:00.001+08:00

Gerald Nelson Mendoza. And he doesn't have a Facebook, nor a Twitter

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If you could eat dinner with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?

2011-01-22T02:58:00.001+08:00

well i'm not gonna mention who the person is.. HAHA.. but the place should be somewhere romantic. Venice, maybe?

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What did you dream about last night?

2011-01-22T02:57:00.003+08:00

I can't remember anymore... :)

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What was your favorite birthday gift?

2011-01-22T02:57:00.001+08:00

not a birthday gift but a christmas gift. It's one Nike Tennis shoes, One everlast sneakers and a blackberry all in the same month!

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DailyBooth

2011-01-16T22:51:00.001+08:00

this is kinda cool…on the downside, this dailybooth thing does not have an app for Blackberry, which for me, is a must-have in order to appreciate this dailybooth thing. you see, i’m currently in a situation right now where almost everything that goes to me, passes through my blackberry first, and if this technology can’t reach me through my blackberry, then it just can’t reach me at all. add to that, NONE OF MY FRIENDS HAVE DAILYBOOTH….. what a shame. big time fail, i say.

advance merry christmas and happy new year! :)

2010-12-23T11:41:00.001+08:00

Advance Merry Christmas Han!! :)

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how are you doing nico? I haven't heard from you lately. :)

2010-12-23T11:40:00.003+08:00

i'm good. :) hehe... sorry i haven't opened this account for such a long time...:)

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formspring.me

2010-12-23T11:40:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/congyomah

Terrified

2010-12-08T21:59:00.001+08:00

by: Katherine Mcphee

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side
You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life
And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try
You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only
I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you
You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

demented

2010-11-28T02:13:00.002+08:00

I feel so demented right now.. Well, in case you don't know what this word means, according to my handy dandy dictionary, it means being insane or crazy.. But I'm not using this word at that context.. Remember those demented in the harry potter books? Where they just suck up all the happiness you have in your life? Well, I kinda feel that way. I feel such big disappointment, I couldn't even describe the gravity of it in an articulative manner (like that word exists!).

I am blessed, I know, but, whenever a person exerts so much effort into wanting to achieve something, yet he founds himself failing, just makes you more frustrated and sad, just like those demented people in the harry potter books. Ya, so this is it probably for the time being,

anyway, I'm really sorry for not being able to put up anything for the past two months. I was kinda not into blogging lately. But now I am. :) so I hope this would continue for long...

you’re amazing just the way you are…

2010-10-01T21:50:00.001+08:00

after a month of almost doing nothing but study, i finally had the time to do something just for myself: blog a bout something.

this is the first series that i finished while having my agonizing preparation for midterms. and what can i say, i love it. i really really love it. it has a nice plot (although i hate the part wherein paula abdul played as a stupid judge), a very good sense of humor, romance and is informative. and i’m soo waiting for the second season dvd to come out.

one thing for sure, this series will make you a bit h***y. LOL. however, what i like about this series is that it shows us what the present situation most of the americans are facing right now. the country is in recession and a lot of people are scared of being retrenched from their jobs. and sometimes, you just have to do what you need to do and come out with some outrageous things just to make extra cash.

this is so cute. and so fun to watch. made reminisce on my late elementary and early highschool days. LOL. i’m so like him in many ways. small and wimpy.

my jaw dropped when i saw this movie. literally. the movie was quite long and kinda boring at first. however, overall, i have to say that this such a great movie and probably one my favorite. on the surface, the plot talks about the love affair between mew and tong (upper right and lower left), which probably made most of the watchers’ jaw drop as well. however, in line with their homosexual love towards each other, draws a more complex story about love, hope and life.

and this series, i all about parenthood. which will truly make you appreciate your parents even more. as kids and teens, we see things differently, and this series will probably give us a rough idea on how parents are when we don’t see them and how to see things in their eyes.

Things does not always go your way

2010-08-29T00:33:00.001+08:00

I sometimes lock myself inside my room and pretend that I'm a superstar like Michael Buble’. I sing and sometimes, dance. i perform to myself. I'm doing what i envisioned myself to be doing back when i was a kid: a performer.

i never saw my self as an accountant before. not even in my wildest dreams. but here i am, doing the course that never even popped out to me before. why? because i had my chances before. and i never took them. i just let them pass by and watch them being eaten by history. So now, i just dream, and pretend. and i am to forget the part where i thought, “hey, i can actually make a living out of this.”

Charice

2010-08-20T00:52:00.001+08:00

I’m quite topic less on my blog lately. and just an update, college started already… and my subjects this semester are quite horrific. T_T

Moving on, i know that she’s already popular right now, and so many bloggers have already blogged about her, whether its her amazing voice or her recent Botox treatment. nevertheless, i'm gonna blog about her anyway. LOL. Notice my new song? Its her. and out of the twelve songs she sang in her debut US album, this is my favorite.

Ya’ll heard about her current single called “Pyramid” and most of us have to agree that the song was quite good for a someone who is just starting. But for someone who already knew the existence of this lady for quite a long time, (she became popular in the Philippines in 2005) I must say that its quite not her. Don’t get me wrong, I love the song. i got quite addicted to it especially when it was first released. but i must say it again, its not quite her.

Now this song here, titled All That I need to Survive, is her. this song so is so Charice, and I love it. This song hasn’t come out in the radios yet but I bet people will love this song when they hear it, especially Filipinos. :) I first heard this song when I purchased her expensive album way back in May when it was first released. All of the songs were good and i kinda liked a few songs written there (like Reset, In This Song, Nobody’s Singin’ to Me, I love You and Nothing) but this song emerged as my favorite. LOL

anyway here is the lyrics to the song:

All That I Need To Survive
by Charice

I look out my window
And wonder where you are (where you are)
And if you are safe out there
Somewhere in the dark (in the dark)
Time has no meaning
To this broken heart that's mine
I see your face
Where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine
When you're in my world, I am alive
You're all that I need to survive
I've got this friend who says, it's time I let you go (let you go)
The way that you loved me, no one else could ever know
You were the best that ever happened to my heart and to my soul (to my soul)
I see your face
where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine

And if, I mean when
When I see you again
It will be just the same as it was
And if, I mean when
We're together again
Our souls reunited as one

I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine
(I feel your arms when I'm lonely, lonely, lonely)
You're in my world
I am alive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive

My phone is a Survivor

2010-08-12T11:02:00.001+08:00

What happens when you accidentally dropped your phone in the toilet while doing number 2? Especially when it happened right before you flushed the toilet??

1. if you’re playing the music when it happened, definitely the music will start to slow down until it finally turned off..

2. you will be caught in a dilemma wherein you wouldn’t know whether to flush the toilet first or pick up your phone first. (note: you were doing no.2 when the incident happened)

3. your mind will then say, “i definitely need a new phone!”, or “my phone’s dead”.

4. you will not know whether to laugh at your stupidity or be sad because your phone just drowned.

5. Am i going to wash my phone after i pick it up? LOL.

6. you let it dry for a while, i mean, a few days!

7. then you try turning it on again hoping that it’ll work.

8. Alas! its working! you will then try if every application on your phone still works.

9. after checking everything, you will then use it again as if the incident never happened. (note: you didn’t wash it after picking it up.)

10. you tell everyone about it.

it happened to me, and i hope it will never ever happen again.

My Blog Almost Died

2010-07-31T23:54:00.001+08:00

my blog almost died this past month. but the author had lots of fun! hehehe… this is what happened:

only few pictures of me posted in this blog due to the overwhelming problem i currently have with my face…. :(

Dilemma

2010-06-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

Had i known complicated things would arise if i did what i did this past month, none of these things would have happened....Its so sad knowing that there were things i should have done or could have done if i were in a different state and different place but couldn't now because of the present situations i'm in.

Life should have been more generous considering that this time, i can proudly say that I DID MY BEST. or perhaps, i never exerted this much effort on one thing in such a long time. and i was expecting something good might happen. On the contrary, i didn't get what i expected. Maybe just like what the song "just once" says, hell to the yeah that i did my best, but maybe, its just wasn't enough. maybe i have to do more, and not just settle to what i thought was my best in doing the things that i love.

Life, however, taught me not to dwell on things i the past and be consumed by it. It will just depress me, and make me miss the bright things future has to offer. Life offers new things in the future worth looking forward to. And i guess, this time, i won't let myself down.

the past passes by so quickly

2010-06-17T00:47:00.001+08:00

it has been almost two weeks since the semester ended. and until now, i haven’t wrote anything yet. nothing interesting that has happened. or maybe, i just neglected to take note of all those interesting moments since i'm not really in the mood to write anything yet. or maybe my passion to write something on this blog is already gone. (even my photo blog is in comatose right now –i hope it won’t die yet-).

my birthday passed without me even realizing it, or some changes it gave, since i have been very busy, or have been pretending to be busy.

to sum everything up, i mean everything that had happened to me after my finals week, i have watched countless of movies both in the movie house and in my computer. and none of them i have mentioned in my blog. i finished up the third season of brothers and sisters and now watching private practice, i went to one party and ditched two hang-out invitations by my friends. i watched roger federer and maria sharapova get beaten up in the french open, and rafa nadal regaining the no. 1 spot. and i haven’t even mentioned any of those in my blog.

my cable is now in HD and i have now been driven or shall i say, influenced to watch the FIFA world cup even if i honestly think that the game was outright boring since since i can watch it now in HD. and again, i did not mention any of these of these things actually had happened.

sadly, a lot of exciting things worth mentioning happened to me in this past month or two, but i just let it pass by without cherishing what its value should be or would have been…… and now, i can’t remember it anymore.

Adagio

2010-06-11T00:04:00.001+08:00

Non so dove trovarti
Non so come cercarti
Ma sento una voce che
Nel vento parla di te
Quest' anima senza cuore
Aspetta te
Adagio
Le notti senza pelle
I sogni senza stelle
Immagini del tuo viso
Che passano all' improvviso
Mi fanno sperare ancora
Che ti trovero
Adagio
Chiudo gli occhi e vedo te
Trovo il cammino che
Mi porta via
Dall' agonia
Sento battere in me
Questa musica che
Ho inventato per te
Se sai come trovarmi
Se sai dove cercarmi
Abbracciami con la mente
Il sole mi sembra spento
Accendi il tuo nome in cielo
Dimmi che ci sei
Quello che vorrei
Vivere in te
Il sole mi sembra spento
Abbracciami con la mente
Smarrita senza di te
Dimmi chi sei e ci credero
Musica sei
Adagio

sung by: Lara Fabian

After going through hell

2010-06-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

this is what normally happens to people after they’ve gone though hell…

note: none of these people knew how they looked like after i snapped this photo… my apologies to them, for exploiting their agony and showing it to those who are interested in reading my blog.

14 days left

2010-05-16T02:09:00.001+08:00

14 days till my company law finals, 14 days till my birthday. i wonder how will it be? disaster? or a celebration?

obviously, any person would want that day to be a celebration, especially for me, cause its my birthday. but how can i celebrate when i know that this day could make or break my, … uhm… -anything that would be made when you succeed and anything that would be broken when you fail-. and considering my progress, i am well bound enough to get the second possible outcome on this particular day.

to succeed however, is not difficult… all i have to do is: Study, Study, Study. isn’t that easy??

such a blurry and unprogressive day for me

Its almost 2AM

2010-05-03T01:50:00.001+08:00

and i’m still awake. fortunately, i don’t have a class tomorrow. but unfortunately, to cancel out the one i wrote previously, i have to got to college, and arrive there practically before 8AM…… i totally forgot that i have a meeting w/ my peers tomorrow…. T_T

So guess what, i booked a movie ticket last saturday to watch Iron Man this evening at 10:45PM. i just finished watching it and it was funny as hell, but i have to get going now cause i still have lots of things to do before i go to slumber! …

(sigh)

Life is Stressful. . . . . But fun!

2010-04-27T21:56:00.001+08:00

life for me this past month was nothing but extra-hard and depressing. everything and everyone seems to be out of their game. everyone is depressed, i’m depressed!! and the worst part is, it hasn’t ended yet.

So why is it fun then? cause for me, its better like this than be idle.

It should be illegal. STUPID

2010-04-08T23:21:00.001+08:00

isn’t it not okay to violate somebody’s rights just in order to satisfy your freedom of choice? but why does some countries have these things legalized? why do they just look on what is apparent and perceivable and what is now and look at the future possible consequences of legalizing such things? that such legalization may cause or will definitely cause the violation of somebody else’s rights? the kind of right that is very basic to al of us: the right to live.

i have been watching this episode of one TV show that i really like and it just so happened that abortion became a part of their plot on this particular episode. and you know what, it deeply affected me because in that particular episode, they actually made abortion somewhat okay and not immoral at all. that a woman’s right to choose is way more important than another person’s life. it deeply saddened me because i just realized that i have been living in this make belief world that all educated people have the same outlook about this particular thing. that it is not okay to perform this and that it is inhumane. but now, i guess the world is not like what i envisioned it to be like.

philosophy 101: you can have all right that you want, as long us it does not violate other people’s right as well.

a woman has a right to do what’s best for her. she can do whatever she wants but she must not violate the right of the person growing inside of her if there is one. she must not do something that would serve detrimental to the baby’s life. and most of all, she must not terminate that baby’s life. because that, in itself, is a sole cold blooded violation of human rights.

Hachiko

2010-03-31T20:05:00.001+08:00

amidst the siren of a very hectic life comes a story of faith, devotion and undying love.

his name is hachiko. his story is overwhelmingly inspiring. he is the epiphany of what a person would dearly strive to have: faith, devotion and undying love.

i basically came across him in this Richard Gere movie entitled “hachiko” which basically tells us his story. and basically, after watching this movie, i was out of words. the story as just so inspiring and so heartwarming that it’s basically impossible not to be emotional afterwards. definitely, the best story i have ever known. and on top of it, it is a true to life story. that alone, made it the most special story for me. ^^,

It’s hard to remember everything

2010-03-30T17:34:00.001+08:00

how ironic is it that most of the time, people remember so many things but they can’t even remember the things that they’re supposed to remember.

things that are meant to be forgotten keeps on ringing in your head that it’s like tattooing itself in your brain so that no matter where you are, whatever you do, its there hangin’ around hounding you like a hungry predator.

but when it comes to things worth remembering, like let’s say, uhm, class lessons? the situation turns upside down. you become the wolf hounding that particular memory and that memory is just too swift to be caught.

why is life full of so many crap like this? why???

Notes on my desktop

2010-03-21T21:15:00.001+08:00

i’d really love to put up a printscreen view of my desktop show it to ya’ll (whoever you are) but i can't….haha lol….cause it’s private..:) so, to give a little scoop on what’s on my desktop, i’ll just enumerate them then:

An Analog Clock
A long note saying “blog about something tonight…^^,”
A currency converter (1AUD is 3.028RM right now)
A Weather forecast
A calendar
A slideshow of “THE PICTURES”, and
My mini Facebook page.

now i guess ya’ll have an idea already on why can’t i show you my desktop.

anyway, it’s been a while since i blogged something personal. something like, what has happened to me lately…it all has been about sentimental things, things that bother me or my realizations in life that has been filling this all along. everything has been too serious and i kinda don’t like it that much…and not to mention, it’s been causing me awful problems lately…

what i am trying to say is that, those things, are not the things that frustrates me the most anymore. because i only become like that when i’m bored, stagnant and idle. but since i’m busy now, i have new frustrations now: STUDIES. hahaha….it’s only been a month and i’m here, studying non-stop…you know why? because it’s Midterms now! … OMG, i can’t believe it has been that fast!

for the past 2 days of my boring life, i have been memorizing twenty seven company law cases and been revising my finance paper for fourty eight hours straight! C’mon, how cool is that!?? i mean, how fucked up is that!?? i just really hope that i’ll get back my fuckin’ two ringgit tomorrow when i score the highest in our law paper.! mark my words.

VOTE

2010-03-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

People just can’t live by themselves

2010-03-14T03:06:00.001+08:00

8/10

people just can’t live by themselves can they? but if they did, how can life be like? is it fun being with people you only see once in your whole life? or is it better when you are with someone you can spend your whole life with? food for thought.

i have been reading a few blogs here and there, reviewing my lessons for Finance, Accounting and Law and been thinking about what my next blog be like. cut it short, i'’m doing quite okay. not that everything has been great, its just fine. not that extraordinary. the only good thing is that, all of those “ordinary” times, i have been with my friends. and that has been making it somewhat special.

now definitely, i don’t know what it’s like living by yourself. without any friends, family or anyone. you see, i can’t even write something that tells my concrete opinion about what the hell was this movie like. cause i cannot imagine life without the people that i love.

i like the 10 million miles card though. XD

Guilty

2010-03-10T21:17:00.001+08:00

i had an eye opening experience this day as a matter of fact. it was such an eye opening experience due to the fact that i just realized that whatever happened to me this past few months, had happened to my friends too. and not just that, i felt that for the first time in my life, i am not alone. hehe.

i felt very guilty because whatever conversation i had with them this morning, made me realize that i had done some things i’m not supposed to do. just like what my classmate said, “whatever happens at home, stays at home. it’s not right to let the whole world know everything that is happening to yourself and your family.” and she’s right.

i guess the person she was referring to was just like me. and just like what others think about me, she thinks that this person is very lucky to have those things she has right now. but for me, having things ( i mean, monetarily valuable things) does not necessarily mean having luck in life. it doesn’t necessarily correspond to happiness and/or satisfaction. sometimes what a person need is something very basic and priceless that even having things in life cannot even equate to his/her desired level of happiness. sometimes, something’s just really missing. a person like me may not be able to identify it logically but those little missing basic things are the most things a person like me, as well as the person my classmate was referring to needs. my classmate has it, and i don’t. most of my family has it, and i don’t. and unlike some of my family who’s happy not having it, i’m not. that’s what a person like me want. that’s what a person like me needs.

Oh College Life

2010-03-03T21:47:00.001+08:00

life has been pretty easy for a student who only has three freakin subjects to pass in a semester. not till’ today. now i know why Murdoch only allows a maximum of three subjects per semester on a student like me. cause they’re just almost impossible to pass. really. i don’t even know if i will be able to pass even one subject. and that’s even an understatement as a matter of fact.

life in the college world today is so much different that the college life i had before. just like what my law professor said a few meetings ago, we were pampered in a kindergarten four months ago (and i beg to disagree on that), so now, welcome to highschool. if this is just highschool, so how difficult can college be?

i have been in college for three years now, and i still can’t even describe how college life really is. definitely its more difficult than highschool. but this time for me, its unimaginable.

First Week Exhaustion

2010-02-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

out of all the first weeks that i had in my entire life nothing beats hecticity (a word which i made up myself) of this week. it’s awfully great, but extraordinarily exhausting. i can’t even find the right words to describe this. its nothing like any week of my life.

stating some of the facts, i am in a new campus, which is great! but after a week, the cafeteria is still not functioning. there’s no food and no water. tell me, how are you gonna survive a whole day without those two essential things?

my books costs RM743 in total, that is PHP10,402 in my own money, which is horrific. that’s still even an understatement. i have to pay $1,443 by next week for my exam papers. that will be RM4,473.3 or PHP62,626.2 in total. i am already financially exhausted and i still haven’t even paid these yet.

the transportation now is a pain in the ass. due to not having my own transport, i now have to travel back to the old campus everytime i finish class just to catch the bus and save money. thank God i have some friends who are kind enough to drop me there for three consecutive days now. ^^,

the subjects, ohw, i only have 12 units. that is three subjects, which comprises of Corporate Finance, Contemporary Financial Accounting and Company Law. sounds easy eh? especially from the fact that there are only three of them… but believe me, i would rather have 24 units per semester in the Philippines that have 12 units of this gravity.

and by the way, i am the new Financial Planner of the Murdoch Business Club for the semester. its quite good. i can exercise the skills that i have learned in Xavier all over again.

now that i have these on my back, one thing for sure, i totally need a miracle right now.

new

2010-02-22T23:34:00.001+08:00

finally, my long dwelling into isolation is finally over. after almost like another semester, the first day of 2010 has finally started. all equipped with a new and serene campus, new refreshing environment and a bunch of familiar faces, making this journey look chartered as it ironically don’t.

the new campus was pleasantly surprising for me. although some facilities are not yet fully functional, the kind of environment to conveys are promising. it presents an aura much more needed by the students that what the main campus does. it suggests responsibility, a kind of virtue that can only, and if not, most likely achieved in a working corporate environment. it does not nurture, it teaches us to be ready. it’s tough love.

being an international school of this size, which only caters the chosen few, gives us a sense of unity among our cultural diversity.

it is simply fantastic.

The Blind Side

2010-02-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

10/10

such an extraordinary movie to be given any deduction. so far, this is the best movie i have watched in 2010. having been watched the movie a few days ago really made me reflect a few things in my life. who’s gonna be there to protect m blind side?

what i mean is that who’s gonna be there for me at my lowest point? when i’m in such a vulnerable state wherein there’s nothing i can do but to trust somebody? am i gonna have somebody who could be there for me in my darkest hours?? would God give me a chance to have that someone?

everything has been very crappy for me this past few days. i’m currently not in the state wherein i can say that i am sane enough to function. i have been in isolation for three months now. and trust me, those three months were probably one of the toughest in my entire life. topped with few extreme emotions, few extreme situations, few extreme events, i don’t know how i survived it. and i tell you, this is just the beginning.

Life truly is COMPLICATED

2010-02-10T01:59:00.001+08:00

9/10

does a love gone wrong really deserve a second chance? even if giving it a second chance means breaking new rules? nowadays, everytime i think about my own love gone wrong situation, i just laugh about it. i even feel disgusted by it. but what if i was asked for a second chance? i mean a third chance? haha, i almost forgot. would i give in? even if it’s forbidden already? kinda sounded like i was the girl in the movie. haha.

oh well… i don’t know, that’s all i can say. screw it if it happens. i am pretty sure though, that second chance won’t happen anymore. we have our own lives now. we live in separate countries, and we don’t contact each other anymore. it could also be mutual that we don’t wanna see each other anymore. and for me, that will be a yes. i don’t wanna see that person, ever again.

i have a new love now. (LOL) and it’s complicated. i’m just intoxicating myself from this love that cannot hurt either party. well, i must admit, it can hurt me (so ironic), but it won’t be devastating. and it can end anytime. all i have to say is its over. by that time, it truly is over.

Mr. P

2010-02-07T23:11:00.001+08:00

this is mr P. he is a thai guy with big keys attached to his penis. LOL

can i be perfectly honest even for once??

2010-02-07T22:56:00.001+08:00

i really wanna shoutout this current status of mine to facebook, but i can’t. unfortunately, it seems that i have been lying to everyone my entire life. my first thought was “i don’t know why am i doing this” but who am i kidding, right? obviously, i know why. i just don’t wanna tell. i just don’t know how am i gonna spare myself from all my relationships that might be ruined if in case i did tell the truth. i don’t know if people are gonna accept me.

i have told some people about these stuff but i also made sure that these people won’t be able to hurt me at the end of the day. so what i trying to say is that i tell the truth to strangers. not to those people i value the most. there has been times that i had the opportunity to tell everything but each and every single one of those opportunity i flunked. and now, i don’t know if when the next chance will be.

its just so frustrating.

fun Thailand. NOT!!

2010-02-03T01:09:00.001+08:00

it was a paradise, now i just want to go home. i was caught off guard and it really was the first time i experienced that kind of chaos. now i’m disgusted and pissed off. and again, i just want to go home. insiguida!.

i’m not gonna divulge everything here cuz first of all, i am not proud of it. and it’s just too personal of a matter that i don’t think i can even think of writing it here. but to tell you what really happened, we were tricked and extorted.

thai people are nice and hospitable, but some can just be downright nasty. i’m not generalizing, i’m just saying what actually experienced here. and for a country whose economy mostly rely on tourism… ehem ehem… that’s not a good sign. definitely, other tourists wouldn’t want to experience this…

is this a sign??

2010-02-01T16:44:00.001+08:00

i hope its not. i don’t wanna be superstitious about things that happen in life but certainly, i felt that this thing (whatever what i’m doing is) is not quite going wherever it should go. i’m am now crossing the line i think. and this was i think the exact same reason why my previous relationships didn’t work, because whenever i feel comfy, i cross the lines.

anyway, it hasn’t happened in reality yet but someday if given the chance, it might just happen and i might just cross the line again. anyway, here’s what happened:

miriam and i were in a subway, conversing about anything under the sun. i was not quite sure where were we going at that moment but i didn’t bother. i was just enjoying every moment about our conversation. what we were conversing about, i don’t remember anymore. so lets just pretend we were conversing about school.

so as the conversation goes on, MP (who is ~~my crush~~, the person i love –LOL-) entered the scene and kissed miriam in the forehead. (weird). i was not bothered by it since MP usually kisses miriam in the cheeks. (not in the forehead). i don’t know why it is in the forehead this time. but there is something that really bothered me: MP ignored me, and didn’t even looked at me. – i was shocked- . and then MP chose to sit on the other end of the subway. i didn’t know what i had done. did i crossed the line again? i don’t know. i pretended to ignore MP too and pretended that i didn’t care. but deep inside, i was hurt. my heart was pounding so hard during the continuation of my conversation with miriam. that moment, was all i can think of. i wanna go over MP’s side and ask what’s going on but i thought twice. i let it go.

and then, my dad’s alarm rang and it was all over.

then again, it was just a dream. but i’m afraid it would definitely happen again if i let my feeling control me. so i have to stop. i have to stop now. T.T

First Day in Thailand

2010-01-31T21:57:00.001+08:00

it went almost perfect…NOT!! lol … but i had lots of fun… more fun compared to what i had during my vietnam escapade last june. well, it is more because of me being such an asshole to my parents while in vietnam that cost me the lack of enjoyment. and now, i realize that that ruined moment might be my only moment in to vietman, and i blew it already.

so i’ve been taking all the chances that i can get. and in just the first few hours of being here, i already enjoyed it a lot. (as what i have said, it went almost perfect) and these were the things that happened which i actually liked:

the airport was actually unpainted… but it really looked good. t’was cool! ^^,
my parents and i went to the grand palace! :) it was really cool!! too bad i still can’t upload the pictures…
while in the grand palace, my parents made me wear this ridiculously ugly pants that made me looked really funny… but i was such a good sport, and i rocked it like a pro! haha
The temple of the emerald was too good to be true! lol. (if you know what i mean) too bad i am not allowed to take photos of it! hmph

but it never was, that’s the drawback. you can never make something perfect, since, nothing really is. well:

i got stuck in the immigration for quite a while because i forgot the name of our HOTEL! … damn it.
the luggage cam up late. it took almost thirty minutes just to get the first bag in the collection area, by far, the slowest transfer of luggage i’ve ever experienced in my whole traveling life.
the hotel was AWFUL! … its actually just the second worst hotel i’ve ever been (the worst is the one in singapore)
the woman in the jewelry shop was rude to my mom, and that really pissed her off.

sorry for such a pictureless boring post. i just had fun, that’s why i had to blog this..:)

Who says my holidays’ gonna be boring?

2010-01-31T00:01:00.001+08:00

indeed, a silver lining has been spotted amidst the dark clouds of my 3-month stint away from civilization. I AM GOING TO THAILAND!!…wohooo!! sorry for being so excited..lol.. but indeed, it is really refreshing for me since i have been inside this cave of mine since november. and guess what ya’ll!! its also my first to actually go to thailand! so i’m really excited about that.

there are drawbacks however. first, i’m going w/ my parents. boohoo! and on top of it, i’m broke! so i probably won’t be able to shop. and its gonna be likely that i’ll just be following my mother wherever she goes. damn. but hey, atleast i’m still going to thailand right! … i’m truly gonna make the best out of this escapade, i’m gonna enjoy myself and i’m gonna take lots of pictures for my photoblog! ..:)

i’m leaving at exactly seven hours from now… hahahaha

lights out!

What is Love?

2010-01-27T23:55:00.001+08:00

10/10

i don’t know how i came up with the title… it just popped out of my mind. that’s all. anyway, i gave the movie a perfect score… i love it. i love it so much. this is so gay, but i don’t care (haha) i love love stories and i love how they came up with such a wonderful story from this basic, overused theme.

i wouldn't change one second of our life together

i wish i’d be able to say these to someone someday. to someone i’d truly love with all my heart and all my soul in my entire life. (sigh)

its sad how the story ended the way it did. its bitter sweet. it just made me realize that nothing lasts forever in this world. you just have to cherish that person because you’ll never know, you might not be able to see him again.

Constant Vigilance

2010-01-25T16:10:00.001+08:00

have you ever posted something or blogged about something so personal that you just don’t want anybody to read it? well i have, and i pretty much know some people who does it and had their ass bitten up by it that even if they already have deleted their “post” it still haunts them up to this day.

i have this notion of myself of being so unpopular, that nobody would even bother to read what i post here. and i still believe that. but somehow, i do put some border on how personal can i get whenever i post something here. cause you’ll never know… you might just end up divulging things that are unspeakable in your “real world”.

you see, being connected to the cyberworld is just like being a celebrity. somehow, somebody’s gonna be interested in you and on what your write. you’ll gonna have your own personal spotlight that is constantly there for the world to see. so be ware. and if your not that comfortable with your skin yet or if your still have “something” to hide, well, you’re in deep shit.

this is not a solitary confinement ya’ll. this is whoring yourself indirectly, not only to the people you know, but to the world at large. so, be vigilant. if you don’t want to, be comfortable with who you are and don’t be ashamed of your skin. that way, its okay to be vulnerable.

Legion to my solitary confinement

2010-01-24T03:20:00.001+08:00

6/10

before i make my point, here’s the synopsis of legion from IMDB:

When God loses faith in Mankind, he sends his legion of angels to bring on the Apocalypse. Humanity's only hope lies in a group of strangers trapped in a desert diner and the Archangel Michael.

so, haha, i was right! ok, here’s the story…

obviously, i watched legion w/ my family a few hours ago. after the movie, discussion part obviously took place. however, it got to the point whereby my dad and i were already arguing about what really had happened. but i knew better, i don’t want to screw up the apparently good day we had so i kept my mouth shut. and this time, i guess i made the right choice. basically, what am i trying to say is that arguments similar to this happened already before, that my dad and i would have some misunderstandings about certain topics, or we would have opposing principles on something that it would then lead to us arguing and him shouting at me and pointing out that he knew everything (cause he’s older, basically) and that i don’t have the right to argue because i know nothing. so this time, i kept my mouth shut.

cut it short, my version of the story was exactly what the synopsis had said. his version was this:

all angels are attempting a coup that would eventually lead to the destruction of the entire mankind. and how would they do it? kill the baby. God sent michael to protect the baby from the legion of angels and preserve the entire mankind as a result.

so upto now, he still believes that he was right and i was wrong. i hope he considers looking at the legion synopsis in order for him to realize what really happened.

anyway, that’s it for today.. it may seem like i was dissing my dad in this post.. i was. my deepest apologies. but i just have to make my point this time, cause i was right. and i can’t definitely argue back so i’m arguing back here.

Post 92

2010-01-21T01:31:00.001+08:00

8/10

watched this movie few moments ago w/ mum and dad. the movie was nice, quite funny and definitely for kids and for kids at heart. :) anyway, check this out:

family isn’t whose blood you carry,
it’s who you love,
and who loves you

this phrase was said by jackie chan, and it really catched my heart and made me ponder about some things in life. so, who really are my family? is it always gonna be the one who are blood related to you? well ofcourse, i love my blood family, and i guess they love me as well. but i also have to say that besides them, there this families i’m pretty much part of…

i have additional 32 brothers and at least 10 fathers (excluding my real father). they are the people who i pretty much missed the most. its been more than a year since i saw some of them, and about 3 years since i saw the rest. it really made me realize that maybe i just miss them, that’s why i’m lonely. i miss hanging out with them, i miss them making fun of me, pissing me off, making me loath them so much… i miss the fun stuff, and the fun stuff is them…

anyway, stop the drama. start a new one. hehe

i received this 2010 horoscope from my ex-classmate. some of the things it says, are really true. hehe. just like Gemini. i’m Gemini, and most of these, i can say are true for me…

GEMINI - The Twin
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

maybe this is the one i should post on the “about me” part of my profile…

and this is the horoscope of the person i love the most! :) hehe

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

yeah right! EXTREMELY ADORABLE!! Hardworking, and add to that, VERY SMART!! :) and very ATTRACTIVE.. that’s why i’m in love with this person soo much. i just hope that this person doesn’t find out anything about this..hehehe

Goodnight!! :)

formspring.me

2010-01-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/congyomah

Resurrection and Issue

2010-01-20T00:17:00.001+08:00

The quickest way to find love is to give love. If you want it too badly, you will not find it. The most secure way to keep love is to give it space and care to grow. If you hold it too tightly, you will lose it.

after much pondering, i have decided to finally give my restaurant another shot! … i meant my restaurant in facebook. here’s how it looks when it closed down:

here’s how it look like now:

see the difference?? haha.

the quote written above doesn’t really corresponds to what i just wrote right now. but i have to admit that it definitely was the right message for me. well, as nobody knows, i’m quite desperate for love at this moment. why? the hell, i’m lonely, i feel awful, and i feel ugly (never thought a guy like me would feel like this just because he’s loveless). and i think the only way to get rid of these sad feelings is to find love. cheesy. (sigh). but the right person hasn’t came yet, and my only prospect as of the moment is definitely not the right person. why? God knows why.

That’s the first issue.

Have you ever heard of the ongoing fidelity issue between Kris Aquino and James Yap? For those who does not know them, Aquino is only the second most powerful celebrity in the Philippines right now plus she is the daughter of the first woman president in the Philippines. Yap is a basketball player in one of the local teams in the Philippines. both of them are very popular and their issue had been a front page worthy in Philippine broad sheet standards (these issues does not usually go front page in Malaysia).

That is just an introduction to my second issue.

Although its not about fidelity, my issue also involves a couple’s issue. It’s about responsibility. When a man marries a woman, that man becomes responsible to the woman’s needs as well as the woman, to that man’s needs, and both of them to their children’s needs. for me, marriage is not like a hot rice that anyone could easily throw out of their mouth if it is very hot for them to handle. it entails sacrifice, and determination to fulfill the responsibilities that you vowed. there is no comfort zone, each should adjust to the new life that they will encounter in the future. because if no one would, or only one would adjust, definitely, it won’t last.

a person (who’s already on the right age) that still stays in his parent’s house and still sucks the milk out of his mom’s breast, and GETS MARRIED, is an eager irresponsible asshole.

“stand on your own feet stupid!”.

Random Post

2010-01-17T22:27:00.001+08:00

too bad for you i’m the only one whose left. what if i too have left you? what would you feel? i bet you’d swallow EVERYTHING you said.

I’m really feeling the urge to burst out and write all my frustrations right now. but i’m afraid the issue i’m currently dealing right now is a bit too sensitive to blog about. so i guess that’s about it.