something good actually happened. i finally had a great slumber in days!! :) today is 7:22AM in the morning and i just woke up… since my usual days are supposed to be sleeping time at 7, this for me is something really special.
i just remembered yesterday when i tried to sleep at around 11pm and i can’t. it was really frustrating not just because of the fact that i really wanna sleep , but also because its been a very long time since i had an early sleep. its very frustrating because this habit has been the cause of my back pains and not having able to wake up for a hot breakfast and an early chat with my parents, which could have a way of resolving our lingering differences and if i’m lucky, tell them everything that i have to tell them, or in short matters, confess. but since i always wake up this past few days at around 1pm (awful), the what-could-have-been great morning conversation with my folks ultimately turns into bickering and shouting which just adds to my growing distance to them. now, i am not even sure if i can commit myself to taking care of them once they grew older and aren’t capable of taking care of themselves anymore, when everyone knows i am the only one who can actually be capable of taking care of them,. and now, the willingness is slowly drifting away…..
that’s why this is very special to me. somehow, it is a new beginning that i could look forward to. i just hope that i won’t be drifted back to slumber once i finish writing this post….lol
