i had an eye opening experience this day as a matter of fact. it was such an eye opening experience due to the fact that i just realized that whatever happened to me this past few months, had happened to my friends too. and not just that, i felt that for the first time in my life, i am not alone. hehe.
i felt very guilty because whatever conversation i had with them this morning, made me realize that i had done some things i’m not supposed to do. just like what my classmate said, “whatever happens at home, stays at home. it’s not right to let the whole world know everything that is happening to yourself and your family.” and she’s right.
i guess the person she was referring to was just like me. and just like what others think about me, she thinks that this person is very lucky to have those things she has right now. but for me, having things ( i mean, monetarily valuable things) does not necessarily mean having luck in life. it doesn’t necessarily correspond to happiness and/or satisfaction. sometimes what a person need is something very basic and priceless that even having things in life cannot even equate to his/her desired level of happiness. sometimes, something’s just really missing. a person like me may not be able to identify it logically but those little missing basic things are the most things a person like me, as well as the person my classmate was referring to needs. my classmate has it, and i don’t. most of my family has it, and i don’t. and unlike some of my family who’s happy not having it, i’m not. that’s what a person like me want. that’s what a person like me needs.
