Dilemma

Had i known complicated things would arise if i did what i did this past month, none of these things would have happened....Its so sad knowing that there were things i should have done or could have done if i were in a different state and different place but couldn't now because of the present situations i'm in.

Life should have been more generous considering that this time, i can proudly say that I DID MY BEST. or perhaps, i never exerted this much effort on one thing in such a long time. and i was expecting something good might happen. On the contrary, i didn't get what i expected. Maybe just like what the song "just once" says, hell to the yeah that i did my best, but maybe, its just wasn't enough. maybe i have to do more, and not just settle to what i thought was my best in doing the things that i love.

Life, however, taught me not to dwell on things i the past and be consumed by it. It will just depress me, and make me miss the bright things future has to offer. Life offers new things in the future worth looking forward to. And i guess, this time, i won't let myself down.