i really wanna shoutout this current status of mine to facebook, but i can’t. unfortunately, it seems that i have been lying to everyone my entire life. my first thought was “i don’t know why am i doing this” but who am i kidding, right? obviously, i know why. i just don’t wanna tell. i just don’t know how am i gonna spare myself from all my relationships that might be ruined if in case i did tell the truth. i don’t know if people are gonna accept me.
i have told some people about these stuff but i also made sure that these people won’t be able to hurt me at the end of the day. so what i trying to say is that i tell the truth to strangers. not to those people i value the most. there has been times that i had the opportunity to tell everything but each and every single one of those opportunity i flunked. and now, i don’t know if when the next chance will be.
its just so frustrating.
